2012-01-24

well i have had a slump for the last two weeks as i have been unwell. i had tonsilitis and the worlds worst toothache. But my diet has stayed strong but my exercise has gone by the wayside something awful. ( humiliatingly my new trainers are still in their box- don't say it) Its my final weigh in of the month next tuesday - my goal was to be under 220lbs - i'll let you know how it went. On my plan to keep feeling good about myself regardless of my weight i am coming a long well. I bought a lovely slinky new pyjama set from Sainsburys ( rose printed satin cami and cropped pants) and i feel super slinky and sexy in bed now. I also have a manicure and pedicure booked for Saturday because you are never too fat for pretty feet and hands :) Im going on a buy one bring a friend for free so i am taking my super tiny friend Alice. And we will both look super slinky together. ( just noticed i use the word super a lot- i will try to rein that in ) I am still feeling really positive and when my illness subside. i will be pounding that stepper during all my favourite shows!

2012-01-08

Its been a week ( now the 8th January) and the week went pretty well - a few little lapses. I wanted to cut out bread, chocolate and crisps. I suceeded on chocolate and crisps but i failed at bread. i had a round of tosat on wed/thurs/ and today. I also went out and had a sunday lunch which i know is AWFUL for the waistline but it tasted so damn good. plus i refuse to stop living my life whilst trying to drop this weight. This is a marathon not a sprint, and i suppose i feel if i deprive myself of everything i am more likely to have a huge binge and then give up. The goals for this week are to still not have chocolate and crisps, try to lapse a little less with the toast ( my big weakness) and to start my exercise plan. I have a new pair of trainers and aerobic step and i plan to do 300 steps every day on it. I also have to walk back from work at least twice this week. I have been reading a book at the moment called the Happiness Project all about finding the joy in your life. A bit preachy for me tbh but i find the idea intriguing especially at the start of such a self improvment kick. I'm married and have a good job,im smart and a smiley person. I have everything to be happy about but what is happy. Is it the sum of your life or the little bits of life that don't fit neatly inside that bring the most joy. I want to be happy with every aspect - the obvious sources and the less likely sources. I have also been reading a book called 'Running made Easy.' i feel ridiculously daft reading it especially as i weigh 16 stone and i won't as much run as i'll wobble. So i read it sneakily at home and late at work when no-one watches. Quick question - what have people found easier Keeping their goal secret from work colleagues or telling them all and letting them gossip? Anyway... i'm still super positive and hopefully when i get back to you guys i will have a weight loss to report?!?!

2012-01-02

Today is the 2nd of January - And my first step towards my goals. I have the same goal every year.. slim back down to a healthy weight and each year it eludes me under the mountain of chocolate and self denial i surround myself with. But not this year! i have let my weight control me for too long, it effects my self confidence, my marriage, it even nearly stopped me enoying new year as i had nothing to wear. I haven't been to a Christmas party in years as i am scared of being mistaken for the christmas santa claus. - All in all it sucks. But this year WILL be different. I have read a good book on healthy eating and body image, i have tried to not over indulge over christmas as i read that it takes 3 plus months to clear your christmas bulge! And i really don't have room to spare. I have a juicer and a book on good breakfast juices, and a new pair of trainers. And tomorrow despite working a 1-9 late at work. I'll be bringing tuna salad and my trainers. I'm excited with step one.

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